first meeting - phone conference with Sissy's RTC education team.
I hung up the phone in tears, angry, cussing and wanting to punch my fist through a wall. We accomplished nothing in that meeting beyond them telling me that Sissy is a bright student that doesn't show her behaviors in the classroom so she shouldn't have an IEP that reflects her emotional/behavioral issues because it's a non-issue at school.
pointing out that they are comparing her academic progress to a classroom of 6 emotionally/behaviorally impaired children so it can't equate to the mainstream public school classroom, accomplished nothing.
pointing out that her behaviors ARE exacerbated by her education but I'm the only one that sees those behaviors, accomplished nothing.
pointing out that her public school teacher that has 10 years of RTC education on her resume and said to me that she did not think the public school classroom was an appropriate placement for Sissy after RTC, got me in trouble. "well Mrs. S, why does her report card from that same teacher say that Sissy was making strides toward independence? It's incongruent."
in other words, what they were saying without saying it was hey mom, apparently you're the part of Sissy's equation that is *BLEEPIN* it up because Sissy is a smart kid and on her report cards, her teachers says so.
(note to self: next time I have a teacher confide in me something they think about what my child needs or doesn't need, get them to *bleepin* put it in writing so it doesn't come back and bite me on the @ss. like it did today. OMG. i want to go beat another loblolly)
here's what The Dad had to say about that yeah. Stalin was smart. Hitler was smart. Jeffery Dahmer was smart. Lots of people are geniuses, that doesn't mean that they are emotionally/behaviorally safe!
*tips hat to The Dad who thinks he isn't good with words but is cunningly poignant when put to the task*
and all it takes is a quick survey of local news to discover that intelligent people can suffer debilitating mental health illnesses that have tragic results for innocent bystanders! Virgina Tech shooting? The soldier on the Texas fort last fall? The recent biology PhD at the U of Alabama? Smart people with mental health illnesses that went unaddressed because they were smart. Too smart. Scary smart.
Unfortunately, The Dad made his point to me and not the RTC education team.
Unfortunately, once again, it is our fault as parents, not the truth that globally, the system fails mental health patients and consequently the innocent ones whose lives cross the paths of these patients.
I've said it a million times, "I'm advocating for Sissy until I'm blue in the face but who the *bleep* is advocating for me?"
My plan isn't to set Sissy up for failure, although no matter what I do, Sissy will likely meet a failing course in life. My plan is to help her be successful in whatever way is reasonably possible. And I do all of it knowing that she isn't reciprocating in the relationship, isn't capable of reciprocating, isn't working toward learning how to reciprocate. But it's my butt that gets thrown under the bus. every.time.
(this is why nice people attempt suicide - they can't catch a break)
(no, I'm not suicidal, just sayin'. don't ya'll go reportin' my butt. I see my therapist on Thursday)