Sissy was charming, adorable and sweet on the ride to the hospital with the ambulance staff. She chatted them all up and they laughed and giggled the whole way to the hospital. I know because she was sure to tell me all about it when i got there. The first thing she told me was that the EMS guy said he would give her all of his Harry Potter books, all seven of them, because he was moving and was getting rid of things. In fact, this was just about the first thing she told me the very instant I arrived ... and I was still several feet away from her bed and just barely within hearing range.
yeah, because when I'M in emergency and waiting to see the people I love, that's the first thing on my mind, books. Just so dissociated. ANYWAY.
Yesterday the EMS guy showed up at the house with all seven books. Just like all newbies to psychoses and severe mental health, he was all sad and gloomy for Sissy that she was going through this.
Now, on the outside, sure, i can see that point of view. It IS sad that she was abused. It IS horrible that she has so many organic issues. But living this hell? Knowing she makes these choices? Knowing she's a hoarder that doesn't put anything away correctly and now that's seven books to clutter up her space that I just stripped down as a consequence for her behaviors? Listening to a pathological liar all day long? Despising that she can be kind and obedient for EVERYONE but her family? Hearing her say"well mom, you got what you wanted, I'll be out of your hair for a few days and you won't have to listen to me scream at least for those few days while I'm here." I just want to burn the books, burn them in a colossal bonfire.
And I really wanted to "clue in" the EMS guy, but he was just so nice, damnit.
Since I'll admit that my judgment is wrapped up in my worry and anger, i'm taking a poll. Anonymous commenting has been turned on.
Should I let Sissy have the books?For those of you that have lived through similar circumstances, I'm particularly interested in whether or not something like a gifting of books made a difference in escalating continued defiance and rage.