On a good day, parenting will test the integrity of your character. On a bad day, parenting will test your will to live. Parenting children with trauma histories will cause you to test the integrity of everything and everyone you thought you knew, for the rest of your life.
~J. Skrobisz

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Still no answer

i've got nothing today. I'm numb.
and my head aches after a sob fest pity party.

We still have no idea if Sissy is coming home this week. No word from the hospital. Our scheduled family phone session for this past Friday didn't happen. The individual therapist never called, nor did she return my call on her voice mail about the missed session.

June 6th is what Sissy was approved through pending the monthly review, which may or may not have occurred given that the therapist that handles the case reviews is out sick with no projected return date.

WG's birthday is on Wednesday. Will Sissy be home? No one knows. No one is talking.

And all I want to do is curl into a ball and cry myself into next year.

5 comments:

J. said...

hang in there, hope there is some news at some point soon so at least you can plan.

Sammie said...

I know its incredibly hard to be stuck no knowing what will happen, especially at the very last minute like this. Just know you have many friends who understand and are there for you (maybe far away physically,but you are in our thoughts and hearts.)

Lisa said...

The waiting is just crazy making!!! I did not have a moment of peace when my son was in the short term adolescent psych unit because every stinkin day was "release day" until they changed their mind and then it wasn't. We were told 3-5 days - he was there 17 and we couldn't make a single plan or do a single thing with the other kids because we never knew from hour to hour whether he'd be released that day. His psychiatrist was saying he needed long term psychiatric hospitalization and the behavioral health people were saying he wasn't so bad and that it would be better for him to just be an outpatient for a day or two and "get Mom services to work on her issues" - AUGH!!!! MY issues were that I had a dangerous, violent, argumentative loudmouth in my home who was holding us all hostage with his raging was and manipulating everyone he came into contact with. They won and he came home worse than ever. YOU have gotten Sissy more help already than I ever was able to access here - things will fall into place and your answers will be soon. Even if she has to come home in the next few days, give WG the best birthday ever without Sissy in attendance.

cinch said...

I wish I could get those people on the ball and help them see the truth but that is like finding a brain for some of them. I am so sorry. I love ya!

Jennifer said...

Sending you a virtual hug from the Ocean State.