On a good day, parenting will test the integrity of your character. On a bad day, parenting will test your will to live. Parenting children with trauma histories will cause you to test the integrity of everything and everyone you thought you knew, for the rest of your life.
~J. Skrobisz

Thursday, August 26, 2010

out of resolve

I'm all out of resolve.

the AC is not working. again.
it is too hot for this.
And now I'm broke.
More broke than the AC.
I'm all out of resolve.

The dog is dying.
She's suffering needlessly.
We'll say our goodbyes
Then let her rest.
I'm all out of resolve.

Sissy has escalated
Twice just this week
Third week of the school year
what's the point of all the therapy anyway
if she never uses those tools?
I'm all out of resolve.

All three kids
were sick yesterday
WG has a fever and an earache
and she's a hyper patient.
I'm all out of resolve.

I'm tired of looking
on the bright side of life
there really doesn't seem to be one
except for the blazing hot sun
that keeps heating my house
past 83 degrees
at 12 am midnight
so i can't even sleep
without sweating
or stewing
or fuming
or wanting to scream
in full Sissy fashion.

I'm all out of resolve.

9 comments:

patti said...

Wow, that is tough. Sending good vibes your way, hope it helps. Nothing makes life more annoying than being hot. I'll blow our cool air your way - 2nd day of less than 90 degrees after 100 days of over. Hope you can feel it soon!

Ashley said...

So sorry to hear so much has gone wrong... I'm thinking of you!

Tammy said...

Some days are like that. I'm praying that tomorrow is bright and light and hopeful, for you

GB's Mom said...

{{{Hugs}}} flying your way!

Lynn said...

May a cool breeze blow up your skirt. Sorry you are struggling. I believe it is the full moon cycle and next week will be better. At least that is what my fortune cookie told me during the reading of my palms under the light of the full moon with a fever. Short of the rambling nonsense, I do hope tomorrow is a better day.

Rose Adoption Journey said...

you are not alone!

peacechaser said...

Oh my.....troubles multiply dont they-I will be praying for you.

Lisa said...

Thanks for being honest - at least you have that going for ya (and it's FREE). I hope your tomorrow is calmer and blessings rain down upon you! (((HUGS)))

sweethoneydoo said...

so, it is so not in relation to this post but...i got a free quilting for beginners book from a friend. you want it girlie?