On a good day, parenting will test the integrity of your character. On a bad day, parenting will test your will to live. Parenting children with trauma histories will cause you to test the integrity of everything and everyone you thought you knew, for the rest of your life.
~J. Skrobisz

Saturday, April 23, 2011


So... actually I've been pretty sick. Not physically sick like a flu or something but emotionally ill. I had a severe string of panic attacks two weeks ago and boy did it knock me down. The trigger? Sissy. Duh.

I'm on meds and as long as I take them, the panic stays away. I forget for a second and it comes racing back.

The problem is the meds make me feel sluggish and around five o'clock every day I get dizzy and really slow and mildly panicky. So at the Y on Monday, attending adaptive swim for AB, it was 5:30, I was wooshy in my head and I slipped going down the ladder.

Let's just say, bruises from car accidents probably don't look this bad. My left leg has been swollen all the way into my foot. And my belly? Wow. Horror flick makeup kind of thing. My whole abdomen has been swollen which I didn't realize until this morning when it wasn't any more. I only knew that it hurt from my ribs to my pelvic bone.

So between getting adjusted to meds, trying to evade panic attacks that seem to hunt me down and recovering from the body injuries, I've not felt well since April 12th. But heck, I've gotten a lot of quilting done because I couldn't do much else.

Today I woke up feeling much better and we're going fishing. I'll try to remember to get pictures.

Happy Easter.


Bren said...

Panic attacks and raising RADs seem to go hand in hand. I can totally sympathize with you!

GB's Mom said...

Hope housed having a good day.Thanks for being my friend!

kisekileia said...

You had a doctor check out the injuries to make sure you didn't break anything, right?

Sincerely Mama said...

ugh. So sorry!

Last Mom said...

OUch!!! Hope you are feeling better and were able to enjoy the day!