On a good day, parenting will test the integrity of your character. On a bad day, parenting will test your will to live. Parenting children with trauma histories will cause you to test the integrity of everything and everyone you thought you knew, for the rest of your life.
~J. Skrobisz

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

OH my

It's on. Sissy is full tilt. Blitzed. Dissociating. Her anti-psychotic isn't working.

ER visit after suicidal ideation. 12 hours on our butts, 5 pediatric psychs ahead of us, we got sent home at 5 am - no beds left. we were at the bottom of the que. tough luck.

Psychiatrist is going to try direct referral so we get the first available bed. Therapist wants her there until we get RTC placement, her CAFAS is finally high enough. Once she's in RTC, we'll press hard for long term. She'll get kicked out in 3-4 weeks and reescalate immediately, get sent back, etc. etc. until we finally get long term. Another 6 months of crisis hell ahead of us, at least.

Meanwhile, waiting on thyroid test as a rule out so we can start Lithium post haste.

I'll post more when I'm not exhausted. Because I am.

Oh yeah, she was HORRIBLE today. Just FYI.

13 comments:

Tara - SanitySrchr said...

(((hugging))) and praying!

GB's Mom said...

I wish we could drink a glass of wine together in front of the fire place. You would get all warm and fuzzy headed and drift off... {{{Love}}}

FosterAbba said...

Sounds like you had a wicked, horrible day. I hope that the path to RTC is finally shortened for everyone's sake.

Jennifer said...

Long time reader. First time commenter...

Saying "hang in there" sounds so very lame, but it's all I've got...Hang in there.

Sending healing energy to you and your family.

Ilsa said...

Oh Jennie, I wish I could give you a big hug right now. Followed by that glass of wine one of your other friends suggested. Maybe a whole bottle...

I am praying hard for you & your family.

Cyndi said...

The crazy has to stop sooner or later and the sooner it does the better for everyone, hope RTC brings you some help.

Ranger said...

Hope this leads to RTC soon and some time out for all of you. Hugs.

aceobase said...

Good freaking riddance. I just hope the RTC staff have the foresight to put her on birth control or neuter her or something to end this cycle of insanity once and for all.

kisekileia said...

At least you have some time with her out of the house ahead.

There are very good reasons why we no longer "neuter" people in residential mental health facilities, but putting her on birth control would certainly be a good idea.

Integrity Singer said...

@ kisekileia - I agree with you about the "neuter" thing. However, I do think it's important to let comments like what aceobase said on purpose - to help us understand how others think.

yes, we have already talked about birth control for Sissy many times. It's tricky - most of those hormones will exacerbate her manic. And thanks for your thoughts on the matter because yours are important too!

aceobase said...

kisekileia - I'm not suggesting that all people in residential health facilities be sterilized carte blanche. I do, however, feel that Sissy should not be allowed to reproduce and that the decision be made by her parents, no one else. I think what Sissy is (intentionally, with malice) doing to her family is horrible and every step should be taken to remove her from the gene pool. I'm pretty sure I read previously that Sissy's mom had more kids after WG, which is appalling to me.

marythemom said...

Hugs and prayers!! I remember how this feels, wish I could offer more.

Mary in TX

kisekileia said...

I agree that Sissy should not be allowed to reproduce, but I would have some qualms about forced sterilization, particularly while she is a minor. Allowing forced sterilization for anyone opens the door to all kinds of abuses, even if it might be justifiable in a few cases like Sissy's. Better to get her an IUD or something like that that is not permanent.