On a good day, parenting will test the integrity of your character. On a bad day, parenting will test your will to live. Parenting children with trauma histories will cause you to test the integrity of everything and everyone you thought you knew, for the rest of your life.
~J. Skrobisz

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


Advent Prayer cards, Day 10 - Confession

Dear Lord, in our lives and in our home we want to honor You. If we are not thankful for the gifts of food and life; if we do not love as we ought to love; if we do not obey when we need to obey; give us the courage to say "I'm sorry." We thank you, God for the Advent gift of Confession! Amen

Our children's church (united methodist) sent these advent prayer cards home with the kids a few weeks back. It's not a tradition I ever observed growing up but I rather like it. Besides, the prayer cards make super blessings a whole lot easier! WG has even read one or two.

After much lawyer-ese from me, I finally got Sissy to confess that she did indeed scream at 5:45 am that she was going to kill herself and that she only said it to make us come (which worked - The Dad nearly flew out of the bed from a dead sleep).

And that was about all I had for the rest of the night. A ten year old that will use the excuse of suicide to force a parent out of bed at 5:45 in the morning is more than I can handle today. Therapeutic parenting skills, She Ra status and RAD approaches all notwithstanding. This confession was too much for me today, made worse when an hour later after confession she was all nonchalant and lackadaisical about it.

Shoot, even her therapist admitted tonight that she is to the point of wanting to blow her stack with Sissy because SHE'S that exasperated. This woman has two master's degrees in this crap and Sissy is about to make her come undone. So that is oddly satisfying to know but lamentable nonetheless.


I'm done today.

I'll post the entries for voting tomorrow.
xxoo to all of you that "get it"

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I am sooooo sorry. I agree that it is crazy that she would do that just to get someone out of bed that early for such selfish reasons. I think of you daily and read this every time you post!