Clearly the start to the new school year has kept me busy. It's been over a month since my last post.
WG broke her arm when she fell off a horse at riding. We already had to stop cross country because although it was intramural, it wasn't for general students. The team was for homeschool only. In addition, managing AB and Sissy during practices was overwhelming me.
I've kept running though. I put in 15 miles this week. My goal is 20. I finally broke the 60 pound plateau and am cruising toward continued weight loss. Fat? No more. Today I stand strong and confident. I am one amazing woman.
Sissy is escalating quickly, par for the course for a new school year. I am actively pursuing getting her a placement at this point. She is extremely difficult to manage at home and at school. She won't toilet appropriately so she is wetting herself and therefore required to wear pull ups. Her tantrums are louder, longer and more frequent. She is stealing, manipulating and lying more frequently. Hygiene sends her for a tail spin. It's time. No more. Today I stand strong and confident that she will get her mental health needs met, even in this broken state. I am one amazing woman.
AB has had some med adjustments as a preemptive move to keep him from evaluation. He has had significant difficulty staying present and in reality. I am trying very hard to do the same. There is a very real possibility that schizophrenia will be an eventual diagnosis for him. I used to be so anxious and worried about these things. No more. Today I stand strong and confident. I am one amazing woman.
I have had many job interviews, I have another one tomorrow, in fact, but no job offers. I am still tutoring and even picked up a new student. Of course, I still provide respite for special needs adults. However, those opportunities provide the petty cash for the unexpected and aren't beneficial in paying down debts or big bills. Still, I am grateful for those financial opportunities. Always grateful. I may not have a job but I am strong and confident. I am one amazing woman.
I expect to get a letter from the local university with my acceptance to grad school for spring 2015. I spoke with them early last week and was assured letters would be mailed out by the end of the week. I had to chase the staff at the university. Two hours, four buildings and ten people later, someone finally found my application, a month after I mailed it. Three weeks after that, I still haven't gotten my final acceptance letter. I am weary of chasing tails. If people could just do their jobs... No more. Today I get what I want because I am strong and confident. I am one amazing woman.
I passed my content exam with flying colors - professional standard level to be exact. I was really nervous about it, doubting my ability. No more. Today I stand strong and confident. I am one amazing woman.
The house hasn't sold. I lowered the price significantly to offset the cost of repairs required to maintain the exterior of the home. It generated more interest, we even had two interested buyers return for second showings but no offers.
I filed a contempt of court order against my ex. He was served yesterday. I'm done with his shenanigans. He has been out of this house since January 2012, the divorce finalized Mar 2013, it's time he is done and out of my hair and complying. I can't take it any more. I've been more than patient. No more. Today I stand strong and confident. I am one amazing woman.
The last nine and a half months have been the hardest of my life. I have not enjoyed it but it has made me strong and confident. It has helped me see what an amazing woman I am. It has given me the power to believe in the impossible. To dare to dream. To hope. To see what is true and real about myself and others. There is still SO MUCH that is not done, accomplished, finished. There is SO MUCH I want and need from this life that hasn't happened and shows no signs of happening anytime soon. There is SO MUCH.
I choose to believe. I am strong. I am confident. I am one amazing woman.