How are things in general? Well, life is crazy hectic but the more I talk to people, the more they all say the same. It seems the cosmos are slicing up a bit of mayhem for everyone. Anger still lurks in my waking life. I'm not sure if I like this emotion better than all the crying and grief? Although that one still likes to come around from time to time. Right now, in this exact moment, I'm overwhelmed by the support from my BeTA friends. I've been crying out for help for months, well, mostly since November when Sissy was placed on suicide watch on the crisis stabilization unit. That's about when the alarms started ringing that I was in over my head, barely swimming, desperately needing something, someone, anything, anyone, HELP.
I'll write more in a day or two, for now, please help if you can or pass the link along, post it on your facebook page or twitter or pin it or... anything! This girl is sinking fast and unless you want me to send Sissy, AB and WG to your house with notes pinned to their shirts that they need a good home while their mom recovers from her OWN trauma, throw me a lifeline in any form or fashion you can muster.
All kidding aside, it is dire. I'm sinking. I need HELP. Have needed help for a long, long time. I'm tired of asking and getting chirping birds. I'm tired of crying by myself and wiping my own tears and hugging myself. I'm tired of going to bed at night alone with this burden on my head and waking to it alone with the burden no lighter than the day before. Pockets full of stones. Until my house sells, I get hired and can relocate the children and I to a place where life will change for the better, I need HELP.
Thanks! and Namaste!